Okay, so, we had our second meeting with the birth mother this last week. It went good and bad all at the same time :). How's that for an ambiguous first statement? It's taken me this long to write it all down because of craziness of life (I'm traveling with the kids right now) and because I had to have a long conversation with our case worker a few days after the meeting before Matt and I felt like we could move forward in good conscience. Now, we're back to being totally on board, but since these are nuances of adoption you just don't think about, I'll try and share all the pertinent details.
First, from the birth mom's perspective (at least what we could tell) it seemed like everything went great. She told us she had no doubts whatsoever about us adopting her child. And she was really excited that we would be raising him. So, so far so good. We got to meet her first son, her mom, and see her sister again. However, during the course of the conversation, we found out several things that just gave us pause. The big thing was the conversation about how open this adoption was going to be. Matt and I felt like as we were talking to her we were coming from totally different points of view about the openness of the adoption. And we just didn't know how to handle that. We are open to an open adoption, but that can look SO different depending on the circumstances. The two statements she made that made Matt and I kind of freeze in our tracks were that once her transportation situation was taken care of, visits wouldn't be a problem even if one day we didn't live in the same town, and then she gave us her phone number to work out the logistics of visits in the future. At this point our wonderful case worker stepped in and said, whoa, just a second - if you give that information, there also needs to be something called an openness agreement that is signed before we go any further. So, thank you so much Bethany!
This is probably very confusing if you don't know certain details about the way domestic adoptions work, so let me pause here and give a bit of a heads up. Basically, in America, you can have a closed, semi-open, or open adoption. And these types of adoptions are decided at the placement, and the type cannot be changed without going to court to change the status. In a closed adoption after the birth mother looks at profile books and the adoption is complete the adoptive family and birth mother part ways and they are totally anonymous to the other one. They cannot contact each other, and the only way that contact can ever be reestablished is if once the child is an adult he/she posts information about themselves to an adoption network, and the birth mother also looks and sees that and asks to be matched. So, it's a big deal and both sides have to be looking for the other one. In a semi-open adoption, the agency acts as intermediary the rest of the child's life (or at least until he's 18). So, letters and gifts can be exchanged, but no identifying information is ever given. Visits cannot continue to occur post placement (there may be a few visits allowed with the agency representative present, but I can't remember for sure). An open adoption on the other hand allows the adoptive family and the birth mother an opportunity to continue a relationship throughout the child's life. There are enormous benefits to this because the child is never left wondering what his/her birth parent was like - he knows. In an open adoption, last names can be given, and any other kind of identifying information. So...back to the visit...
When Erin (our caseworker) handed us the openness agreement, both Matt and I kind of froze because (and I know they covered this, but it was not something that stuck) we couldn't remember what that meant. And honestly, we would never give out our last name, addresses, phone numbers to a stranger, and we were sitting there going, I know we're going to raise your child, but you're still a stranger to us. So...that led us to the long conversation with Erin a couple of days later where among other things (the visit raised a TON of questions for us - mainly because as we get further in the process we realize just how many more we have to ask at this point). And, talking to her, as always, made us feel 100% better and we were behind the open adoption again. Basically, the way an open adoption works is that you sign an openness contract with your agency and so does the birth mother. All this means is that if you CHOOSE to disclose identifying information to each other the agency is not held liable. So, that was a HUGE relief - Bethany will never give out our information, but WE are allowed to determine what information we give out. So, the beauty of that is, we can grow into a relationship with this birth mother. We can start by giving her our cell phone number to make sure we can get together and do our visits, and from there we can determine what's in the best interest of our children and her as well. So, that's the really cool thing about an open adoption. It gives you options. It can grow with the relationship. For Matt and I what this means is NOT that we plan on having the birth mother over for dinner once a week, but it means that if one day we wanted to we COULD. It's really incredible how far adoption has come in the last 50 years.
So, that's our latest there. We're still just waiting on the little guy to come into this world!